I’ve always been desperate for someone to love me but now I’m just desperately trying to figure out how to love myself.
“You can have it all, Lord
Every part of my world
Take this life and breathe on
This heart that is now Yours”Have It All by Brian Johnson
(Bethel Music)
From the start: Genesis of my posts
I’ve been needing a creative outlet. Somewhere I could pour my heart out and organize my thoughts into words. I journal a lot and spend countless hours in the word but I wanted some place to write down all the things that are growing in my heart even if no one ever reads them.
It’s been a wild ride since I met the lord 2 years ago. I’ve struggled with a number of things since then. with his help I have grown in relationship and realization of my true self that is found in him. We have faced things together that I never thought I would and never could alone or in my own strength.
My surrender to him brings me closer and closer to his arms each day the closer I get to him the less of me there is left. And it’s the greatest gift I’ve ever experienced.
Most recently the lord has spoken healing over my body. it scared me at first. so many doubts ran through my head when he promised me I would be pain free in my back and hips lies telling me I was making it up and it would never happen
But I know what the lord spoke to me and I know he isn’t a liar.
I know this didn’t really have a story line and it’s kind of all over the place but maybe, as I pour my heart out more in these posts, my writing will become more refined during the process.
Joy and peace from our beloved King Jesus.
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Youwill say in that day:
“I will give thanks to you, O Lord,
for though you were angry with me,
your anger turned away,
that you might comfort me.
“Behold, God is my salvation;
I will trust, and will not be afraid;
for the Lord God is my strength and my song,
and he has become my salvation.”
With joy youwill draw water from the wells of salvation. And you will say in that day:
“Give thanks to the Lord,
call upon his name,
make known his deeds among the peoples,
proclaim that his name is exalted.
"Courage, dear heart."
I hope you wake up early enough in the morning to put on your favorite outfit and make your favorite breakfast. I hope you find your skin clear and hair healthy. I hope you’re content with the way your body looks. I hope you find happiness in small things today. I hope that, even with your ups and downs, you are content with yourself.
